A Glimpse into Heaven: "Kenady, just wait!!!"

As I talked about in the previous blog, the most important fact about you is how you view God.  So, the next few weeks I'm going to talk about who God is.  I know, I know it seems like we learned this in sunday school.  Yet, I can guess that we have many wrong perceptions of God, even if we spent our whole life in church.

So, I'll keep this short and to the point.  God loves you and loves to give you gifts.

This past week, God has blessed me in many ways.  I really wanted to be in this thing called the music business showcase, and I thought I didn't get into it.  I was kinda frustrated and sad, because I had worked really hard to get in.  Yet, a couple days later I found out that I got in!!! That being said I can just imagine God up in heaven, when I was sad, going "Oh Kenady, just wait!! Just wait till you find out!"

My best friend Grace has this really adorable flannel and her mom bought one for her best friend to give to her at christmas.  One day, Grace's friend complimented on the flannel and told her how cute it was.  Grace in her mind at that point was saying, "Oh, just wait!!! Just wait till you open your presents."

When I imagine God sitting in heaven excited to bless me that is much different than the picture that Satan puts in my head which is God sitting in heaven waiting to punish me.

Yet, when I see God like this, it's kinda easier to be patient.  It's easier to wait, when you trust God is going to bring you something that is beyond your imagination in the future, and that he just can't wait to give it to you.

Last story and then we are through,   I've been looking for a good friend for a long time.  One that could be my bridesmaid and one who I could be myself without being ashamed.  There was many days where I thought I'd never find one and there were many friends that I thought I'd found, but they weren't what I was looking for. And I know God was like "Kenady, just wait!! You're going to meet her in college and her name is Grace.   Kenady Just wait!! You're going to love her!!"

What more can I do? I just don't want to disappoint you!!

Some people would call me a people pleaser.  Others would say I'm too stubborn.  Yet, that doesn't change the fact that I don't want anyone to be disappointed in me, especially my elders and the ones that look up to me.

So…I can't make mistakes, that's just the way it has to be.  I can't make mistakes.

I grew up thinking this way.  I wanted to please my father and would cry at the slightest sign of disappointment.  Imagine how learning how to drive went.   When I messed up, he would tell me and I would think he was disappointed, and I would cry.  Yes, I would cry and I was almost 16!!

I didn't want to disappoint my dad.  I love him and want him to be proud of me.

Yet, this is how I viewed God.  I love God so so much and I don't want Him to be disappointed in his daughter.  I want to please Him, and I want Him to be happy with me.  These are all good desires that satan soon corrupted.

Spiritual Warfare has hit me hard this semester, and I say this not to give glory to the enemy,
but instead to give glory to God because He has saved me and restored me and has given me tools to fight against it.

Yet, satan kept telling me what worthless crap I was doing.   If I studied, I didn't study hard enough.  If I was busy, I couldn't handle it.  He would whisper and say, "Kenady, ugh, you are horrible at managing time, and I can't believe you have to do you homework tomorrow during lunch, ugh that's so despicable" "Your parents aren't going to be proud of you, and God is not going to give you this many responsibilities ever again, because you obviously can't handle them"

After I was in this storm for a while, I couldn't sleep at night.  I was so stressed out, and I didn't know how to have victory over it for it seemed every time I got something done; I had more to do.  It was this never ending cycle of things to do and satan made me believe that my head was spinning and that there was no way out.

Then, satan started corrupting my view of God.  He started telling me that God wasn't pleased and I started seeing God more like a drill sergeant who couldn't be pleased rather than my loving father.

Yet, I was sitting in chapel on wednesday and the speaker told us that the most important thing about us is how we view God.  He also said that God could never be more pleased with you than He is right now, because as a Christian I am in Christ.  God loves his son more than ever, so therefore He loves me more than ever.

So, I would like to dispel the lies of Satan for a moment.

In Christ,

We are loved
We are the righteousness of God, that's right we are righteous
We are valuable, for the value of something is showed by what someone will pay for it.
Jesus died for us and we were bought with that price.
We are worth dying for.

God is so pleased with us.
He delights in us.
He sings over us.

He could never love me more and He could never love me less.

So, readers, let us walk throughout the day knowing that we don't have to earn God's pleasure, that He could never be more pleased.

He hurts you a little, to save you from hurting a lot.

Who knew that I could glean from the TV series house!!!  How crazy is that!

There was an episode where there was a young teen who was sick and they didn't know why…yet there was one problem.  She was set to start sailing in a few days to break the world record and she had been training for it for a long time.

Yet, a few days in House's team found out she had cancer in her arm.  This cancer was fairly curable, as long as they amputated her arm.  Yet, if they amputated her arm, she couldn't set sail and break the world record.  So, she stubbornly said that she was going to set sail anyway, because she had been working for it her whole life.  But, if she did set sail, it was very likely the cancer would spread and she would lose her life.

Long story short…while she was in a medically induced coma, the parents signed a wavier to amputate her arm and basically save her life.  When she wakes up, she sees her arm and is furious and all she can think about is how she can't sail and that she has lost her arm.

The parents, however, are just glad that their daughter is alive.

I think this is how we are sometimes with God.  He knows best and He has oversight and wisdom.  He knows more than we even do.

So, sometimes He might hurt us a little, in order to, save us from hurting a lot.

He did this when Jacob wrestled with God in the bible.  He pushed his hip socket, to humble Him.
God could have totally won the wrestling match but He knew it served a purpose, so He only hurt him a little in order to save him from hurting a lot.

Yet, a lot of times when God is doing this.  We find ourselves angry and confused.  In the House episode,  the girl couldn't stop saying my arm, my arm.  We often get so focused on what we have lost, instead of, what we have gained.  She may have lost her arm, but her life was spared.

So, let us start believing that God is in control and it's a good thing too, because He sees what we can't, understands what we don't and has wisdom above us all.