Well, where do I start?
I put on my best outfit and made sure my resume was combed as well as my hair-do. I researched the company, and read the job description. Yet, their questions...
As a college graduate, I guess I was naive to think that I wouldn't end up here.
I guess I thought that a job would fall right into my lap. Wow, stupid me.
But the lack of a job isn't what has me down, it's the lack of direction I feel.
Who am I really, and who do I want to be?
I'm not sure where I'll be in 5-10 years, and that's just as scary as it is exhilarating. I always wanted a life of adventure, the life of performing and the life that God had called me too, but I didn't know that there'd be so many hills and valleys.
Who am I? Who do I want to be?
Well for starters, I am scared and angry. I'm a servant of the Lord who is just waiting for the Lord to give her direction, and I feel like He is silent. It is moments like these when I would define myself as:
Lost, confused, broken, hurt, angry, and somewhat like failure.
Yet, in the car today I was listening to Lauren Daigle's song "You Say"
You say I am strong when I think I am weak
You say I am held when I am falling short
When I don’t belong, oh You say that I am Yours"
It struck me that I was once again, I was letting my circumstances define me rather than the Lord.
Job or no Job, I'm a child of God
In times of waiting, I'm a child of God
In times of surrender, I'm a child of God
In times of doubt, I'm a child of God
In times of victory, I'm a child of God
Our circumstances don't define us any more than they define God.
Wow, how great is that.
So let us not forget to remember, that no matter where we are in life, God defines us as his own.
