If i'm going to be real, it's been a hard go of it. God has been chiseling me, and it's hard. Through this time God has given me three songs. One was called Idol factory, and since then God has been taking away idols, I didn't even know I had. The second song was called "Be Still".
Be still and know that I am God Psalm 46:10
He is been telling me to be confident and hopeful about what is to come because He is my God.
The stillness has been hard since I like to keep moving, yet I am trying to persevere and wait for the time appointed.
The third song, I finished tonight, and it's called "Prune me". I was praying and asking God to heal me and to prune me. "Consider it pure joy you say, Be still you say well now there is nothing in my way, so prune me, mold me, I know you're chiseling to reveal your beauty. So take away what's in my way, prune me, for your glory" After this prayer, I looked up to a bouquet of flowers my roommate got me and when she had first gotten them the lilies hadn't bloomed yet, yet today they are blooming!
I felt God say, "Look that's you, you are a flower about to bloom" I am a caterpillar about to become a butterfly.
The work that it takes for a flower to bloom is a lot. It has to go through struggles and times of being still yet one day it is going to bloom.
So take heart, o brokenhearted, you're a flower about to bloom!